Maybe I should speak and write more, I’m having troubles using appropriate words. I know a word exist in my mind but I can’t seem to reach it however hard I try. It irks.
People change — that’s what I keep telling myself when something unexpected occurs. Then a voice would retort, “What? You expect people to stay the same? How absurd!” And I end up forgiving and accepting things as a way of life. As I continue to relax my expectations, it comes to a point where I wonder if I might be better of sticking with my standards.
I assume you already have PEAR/PECL available. I am using the CentOS’s stock PHP. First you need to update your channels:
kahwee:~ kahwee$ sudo pear update-channels
Updating channel "doc.php.net"
Channel "doc.php.net" is up to date
Updating channel "pear.php.net"
Channel "pear.php.net" is up to date
Updating channel "pecl.php.net"
Channel "pecl.php.net" is up to date
Phil: Your password is baloney1?
Chow: Well used to be just baloney, but now they make you add number.
Forcing alphabets and numbers into password is just annoying for me. I have a, what I will deem to be, a sufficiently secure password and I had to uglify it with a number. The number actually makes my password harder to remember. Will my passwords be just random hashes one day?
This summarizes what I observe when I watch people open doors. This is science I tell you.
Shaun Micallef – Polite Distances
In general, people here get stressed when doors are opened for them. There are a couple of times when I feel I do not get a thanks not because people aren’t appreciative, they just don’t know what to do or say but to quickly walk through the door (because they need to) and pretend it all did not happen.
New year’s coming and I am excited that I am going older a year. This year has been particularly fruitful. I completed most of what I set to achieve. Here’s a rough status:
On religion, I ascertain my religious stance. I am neither theist nor atheist. I found out about the word “ignostic” (or theological noncognitivism) and felt it describes the thoughts that are forming from 2008 to now and I learn that I am not alone.
On consumption, I have deeper appreciation on the finer things. I learnt to enjoy coffee in its bitter form. I finally got it.
On living, I am slowly discovering what my motto in life is. It’s kind of flaky and I should not discuss it now. I feel a lot of decisions that I make or do not make is based on this narrative. While it differs from most people, I found peace in that statement and that everything will be okay if I continue to invest my options towards that goal.
On work, I quit ONG&ONG because I got too comfortable. I never realized I crave for uncertainty that much. I traded stability for excitement. It’s the first step to reprioritize myself. I look forward to 2012.
On clothes, I am more willing to try out something less conservative. I wanted to believe that there is a perfect form of fashion but this is perhaps fundamentally incorrect. I am confident that nearly no one has any idea if a set of apparel and accessories is matching. It depends on the person having the confidence to pull off the most ridiculous of combinations.
On verbal and written communication, I could do better. I should work on this more in 2012. I tend to be misunderstood.
On health, I am less healthy than before. I will go to the gym more. Oh and by the way, I somewhat concluded that the most important thing in life cannot be health. Anyway who claims that haven’t thought through the subject sufficiently. If you believe in that and you aren’t a health product salesman please let me pull you out of this disillusion. Call me.
On music, I like fusion jazz and electro swing more. And Nicki Minaj of course. I got a pair of Marshall headphones this year and it is best investment this year. Thank you Joanne.
On people, I grew less skeptic and less protective of myself this year. Am I just waiting to be hurt really badly? Maybe. People are kinder to me this year — empirical evidence of something done right.